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michelle got asked to senior prom at the concert today! other than that, i found it pointless.

i fell asleep in the choir room. i have hay fever.

does it ever bother you when u have food, and the layer of fat solidifies? fuck damn those single carbon bonds. 

anyways with the hay fever, will and i do NOT want to run tomorrow. 

speaking of running, i am now 2nd ranked girl in mv. i'm happy for the 1st, more than happy. she deserves it more than i do. i think the junior rut (at least thats wat i call it) gets to me. something i wanted so badly since i was 10 has now withered away. 

i wanted to maintain 1st. i wanted to go to ccs finals. i wanted to go to states in memory of price. i wanted to make the school record. 

i wanted a lot of things, and now i think its tragic that i really no longer care for them. there really isnt a lot of pressure for me to run any faster. its not like my parents like me running. 

so why does it bother me that i dont care?

i'll write later.