because i'm really good at being composed.

i don't miss you as much, but i miss your family and it sucks that i don't get to be a part of it. i don't think about it as often, and it's pretty proactive for me to be mad at you for the first time in my life. i saw her the other day and it made me miss all the get-togethers and dinners and seeing them all together and it was a comfort to know what great people they were. and theres you.

i love how you don't let me express how i feel. merry fucking christmas.